Chapter 2 page 242 - off the rails

Thanks everyone for your awesome comments on my "ten" post. I had decided that as a celebration for each 10 pounds I would eat a SMALL quiznos sub (I promise the quiznos post will actually be coming your way THIS WEEK!) - I used to eat the regular size but NEVER again! I wanted to eat it yesterday to celebrate, but then I thought I better wait to see how I get through Valentine's Day. Having made it through Valentine's day without doing any damage, I elected to "celebrate" with a small sub on Tuesday. It was under 500 calories, but quite a bit of fat.

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I really didn't feel badly for indulging in this (maybe I should have) - but I thought since I used to eat a regular sized sandwich several times a week but since 1/28 I have eaten only soup and salad at Quiznos that it would be an appropriate reward. Before everyone gets upset with me, I do know it's important to use non-food rewards and I will definitely use a non-food reward for my next 1o pounds as this simply ended up being a bad idea.

So, I was feeling really good about losing 10 pounds, having a sandwich . . . and then I went to the MOST AMAZING bakery with my co-workers. Sweet mercy - YUM!!!! The 3 of us shared a bite or two of various things. I still felt okay about doing this. A bite or two of a couple of items was a great way to try things, but without doing a lot of damage. THEN . . . I purchased some things to bring home to my husband . . . with the intention of sharing each of the items. That too was alright. We shared a piece of Du Monde cake (orgasmic, simply orgasmic!). The picture below is not really a picture of what I ate, but it looks similar.

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Again, not worrying too much about this - I felt in control. THEN my husband took me out to eat for dinner. This is where I failed BIG TIME!!! I really was going to be "good". I knew I needed to reign it in for the day. I was so close to ordering a grilled chicken breast, veggie soup, and side salad. Dang - I REALLY wish I would have gone that direction then I could be posting about my success, BUT . . .

I completely made a terrible choice!. If this was the only "bad" choice for the day, it probably would be more acceptable, but when combined with the rest of the crap I had chosen to eat all day - it spelled D.I.S.A.S.T.E.R!!!! I opted for what's called a "cowboy burger". Dang - it's delicious. It's a quarter pounder (weight before cooking) 1 slice of cheese, lettuce, pickles, tomatoes (but I took them off), bacon, BBQ sauce, and ranch. It's suppose to have one onion ring on top, but (thankfully) they were out of onion rings. I opted for veggie soup as my side rather than french fries or something else. So, my side was a smarter (and super delicious) choice!

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I'm pretty disappointed in my yesterday and have now taken a hard look at how I could have done things differently and what I can do to avoid the "chaos" in the future. It was a day of super temptation and I failed the test. Next time - I'll do better, I'll be better, I'll make better choices!

Hope I didn't let you all down with this reckless day!